Roleplaying

I am in quite possibly the most awesome RP ever right now on Roleplayer Guild! ^~^ AND I even get to use one of my most awesome races, the Dazh! Woo! I even drew my character AND COLORED HER! I'm new to coloring in photoshop ^~^ I think I did a good job ^~^

Over.

So...apparently every time I tell the truth, I'm lying and every time I lie, I'm telling the truth. I've lost her. She hates me. And this time it's over something I told her a long time ago that was true. She didn't believe me and said I was lying no matter what I said unless I admitted I lied, but I promised her I'd never lie to her. So I've lost her for good over her not believing the truth. I will still love her forever; she was The One. Oh well. Like I said, I get over things quickly.

I'll still miss her.

But I'm going to move on ^~^ I'm strangely...extremely happy! I should be crying. I should be angry. I should show some sign of loss. But no effect whatsoever. I'm not denying it happened; I've likely lost her forever and by all means, I should be at the very least...sad. Nothing.

I deserve to die.

I deserve to die and I want someone out there to find me and kill me. I have lost the person I love and its all my fault for telling her the truth about something I did. I'll never be forgiven and I deserve to suffer for eternity. I want her forgiveness, but I know it'll never happen.

SOMEONE KILL ME.

EDIT: Okay. Over it. Didn't think I would be over it so quickly. I would be boundlessly happy if she forgave me, but I still don't expect it. If she doesn't...meh. I've moved on. I'll find someone who will love me for my present and future and will forgive me for my past. I want to be loved conditionally, of course; stupid mistakes in the present should have consequences, not unrelated past mistakes. She lasted longer than I expected, though; more than a month. Good thing I'm used to these short relationships.

EDIT 2: Second chance! I will do anything it takes to keep her happy now. I don't want to lose her again.

^~^

I'm 99.99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999% sure I've found "The One" ^~^ (Though it's a different person than I'd been talking about, who is a really close frind, not a lover, though I love her, too, just not in the same way). I feel super awesome with her and I can't not be happy around her! And guess what?! She's expressed it back, not my OCD telling me she does because I do! She loves me and I love her!

I think I've posted some of his stuff before, but this is his newest upload...convenient, huh?

lonlonjp - FFXIII's Eternal Love

Sorry that it gets cut off on the side a bit, but that's really unnecessary; all that matters is listening to the song, huh? Unless you want to play it...but I've linked to it for that very purpose ^~^ Okay, so I figured you should give it a thumbs up or thumbs down if you liked it.