Some stuff.

It's time for another long post! Okay, so it won't be too long and it will still end with a song, as my posts usually do.

So, some updates on RpG related activities. You know that RP I liked so much? Well, it died, but I've found some that I like. It's not all bad, I just kind of wish people wouldn't have stopped posting in it. The ones that were posting (myself included) couldn't post anything more once the others stopped because our posts were dependent on theirs. But like I said, it's okay ^~^ I've joined a few others.

The ones I joined or made were scifi westerns (Firefly/Serenity-type). Those are fun ^~^ My characters for the two I'm in are a "Peng Saleswoman" (though technically she's a spy/merc and I don't specifically say she sells Peng.) The other is a mechanic on a pirate ship (space pirates on Mars, but generally operating on one of Jupiter's moons, Io, which is also my character's home planet), but she's currently deceiving the pirates alongside a bounty hunter.



Okay, other Guild news: I'm getting annoyed by certain members who can't be...verbally graceful. Especially one who apparently said she was older and used a friend's sister's picture. I still like her as a friend, though, and if for some strange reason she's reading this: Please PM me. I don't hate you and haven't said anything behind your back. You know who you are.

I've gotten yelled at a lot lately, most of it happening yesterday. My mom yelled at me over something out of my control (inconvenient panic attacks at my sister's birthday party) and, what hurt more: I got yelled at by the person I love over a cult I started (not for starting the cult, but for accepting too many people). Of course, I hold nothing against either one. They both have their reasons. I just don't like being yelled at. And...I managed to go the whole day without crying! I'm so proud of myself ^~^

As promised, here's a song by the same artist that I posted yesterday! (Lauren O'Connell, youtube user LaurenOC12)

New Favorite Song

Yes, I have a new favorite version of a song! (It helps that the singer is pretty, but I really like the song and she has talent, too ^~^).



And I'm sorry these all cut off >< This is the narrowest size available for this particular video ><.

I'm Loved

That.

And time for a video!

Roleplaying

I am in quite possibly the most awesome RP ever right now on Roleplayer Guild! ^~^ AND I even get to use one of my most awesome races, the Dazh! Woo! I even drew my character AND COLORED HER! I'm new to coloring in photoshop ^~^ I think I did a good job ^~^

Over.

So...apparently every time I tell the truth, I'm lying and every time I lie, I'm telling the truth. I've lost her. She hates me. And this time it's over something I told her a long time ago that was true. She didn't believe me and said I was lying no matter what I said unless I admitted I lied, but I promised her I'd never lie to her. So I've lost her for good over her not believing the truth. I will still love her forever; she was The One. Oh well. Like I said, I get over things quickly.

I'll still miss her.

But I'm going to move on ^~^ I'm strangely...extremely happy! I should be crying. I should be angry. I should show some sign of loss. But no effect whatsoever. I'm not denying it happened; I've likely lost her forever and by all means, I should be at the very least...sad. Nothing.

I deserve to die.

I deserve to die and I want someone out there to find me and kill me. I have lost the person I love and its all my fault for telling her the truth about something I did. I'll never be forgiven and I deserve to suffer for eternity. I want her forgiveness, but I know it'll never happen.

SOMEONE KILL ME.

EDIT: Okay. Over it. Didn't think I would be over it so quickly. I would be boundlessly happy if she forgave me, but I still don't expect it. If she doesn't...meh. I've moved on. I'll find someone who will love me for my present and future and will forgive me for my past. I want to be loved conditionally, of course; stupid mistakes in the present should have consequences, not unrelated past mistakes. She lasted longer than I expected, though; more than a month. Good thing I'm used to these short relationships.

EDIT 2: Second chance! I will do anything it takes to keep her happy now. I don't want to lose her again.

^~^

I'm 99.99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999% sure I've found "The One" ^~^ (Though it's a different person than I'd been talking about, who is a really close frind, not a lover, though I love her, too, just not in the same way). I feel super awesome with her and I can't not be happy around her! And guess what?! She's expressed it back, not my OCD telling me she does because I do! She loves me and I love her!

I think I've posted some of his stuff before, but this is his newest upload...convenient, huh?

lonlonjp - FFXIII's Eternal Love

Sorry that it gets cut off on the side a bit, but that's really unnecessary; all that matters is listening to the song, huh? Unless you want to play it...but I've linked to it for that very purpose ^~^ Okay, so I figured you should give it a thumbs up or thumbs down if you liked it.

^-^

The internet is my second best friend right now ^^ I've renewed my love for someone who is eating dinner as I'm typing this ^^ No video today, too happy!

Experiment

I have nothing interesting to say today, unless of course you like everything I say. If that's the case, then I could talk about anything and that would be fine with you. However, my readers aren't exactly the stalker/obsessive type from what I've noticed. Instead, I'm going to say nothing in this entire article under the guise of writing something important. In other words, I'm going to ramble and use excessive wordiness to express even the simplest and most minuscule idea that I am currently sending to you that this is an entirely wasted post. However, if you are to this point, you are still reading this post, which is frightening. You're actually willing to read a post that you've known from the very beginning isn't interesting in the slightest, has no point, and is entirely just the ramblings of your not-so-esteemed author. I'm not sure whether to be scared or to thank you because you obviously are devoted to reading this. I don't mean this in a rude way, but do you read a lot of modern books, person who is reading this? I can understand why if that's the case. Well, it's time for my video.

Mordin singing in Mass Effect 2, posted by radwiimp.

Side Project

I haven't been posting much on here because I've been working on a side project: I've been creating races. As in the kind you use in games. Like Elves. But none of mine are elves. I was originally creating them for a game (an MMO specifically), but after a major disagreement with my sponsor about a minor detail in my zombie-like race, they will not be used in that game and I have a list of useless races. Thank you so much ><.

Also, THANK YOU DUDEL! I like having my stuff endorsed, so now would be the time for anyone who wants to come forward with a game idea to look at my races and see if they'd like to use them! They're on my RP storage blog and if you ask me, we can work out a contract. I'm willing to create more than just races if you need other ideas, but I absolutely must get credit ^^

And now it's time for my song! Song of the day is youtube user BMorgan1088 (Brent Morgan)'s acoustic indie version of Pants on the Ground. Listen to it before you judge.

I've been sick

I've been sick for far too long. It's really annoying, but I don't FEEL sick, just coughing a lot. Maybe I should just post a video or something.

Suteki Da Ne as played by lonlonjp (see previous post for who that is)

OMG I Love This Guy

And by "I Love This Guy", I mean he makes these songs even prettier than the original.

Jesters of the Moon, from Final Fantasy IX, as played by youtube user lonlonjp


Also, in support of Conan O'Brien, I will NOT watch The Tonight Show (on NBC) after today until Jay Leno is gone.

I know, I know

I know, I'm posting another one so fast and it's not even a new topic! I can imagine it now, you're saying, How dare you not update us! You have the nerve to repeat the topic, you vile woman?! Well, you have to let me defend my stance, as well, you foul-mouthed reader who is probably actually saying that. I really have nothing new to say, so I really have no reason to post, especially since, as I told a few readers, I only wanted to post a few times a month, but make them long posts. I didn't want the quality to suffer and only focus on quantity. And, on the second point, as it is my blog, I have the right to say whatever I want to say (so long as it doesn't break any rules or laws), so I don't HAVE to change the topic. See how that works? Also, I'm not legally a woman, yet ^^

Anyway, I'm going to keep the same topic as before: Love. Yes, even after all this time (said with much sarcasm), I still love her. Very much so. And I find her to be the cutest, most wonderful person I've ever met. And because of that, I want to spread the love in the only legal way I know how: Music. So, without further ado, time for another song!

Close To You, as heard in the movie from the Jim Henson Company, Mirrormask.


Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together and
Decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
And golden starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the boys in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Close to you

And I Love Her

So, I'm completely in love and I probably shouldn't be. I'm going to keep this post pretty short, since I don't really have all that much to say other than that. I just wanted to reinforce that I love her very very much.



And I Love Her by The Beatles

I give her all my love
That's all I do
And if you saw my love
You'd love her too
I love her

She gives me everything
And tenderly
The kiss my lover brings
She brings to me
And I love her

A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

My name is Kita!

Welcome! I find you to be a wonderful person to be reading my blog! Thank you so much! Don't worry, I'm not always this excited. I'll try to update at least a couple times each month.

My name is Kita (overkill, right?). My name means North. North! Conveniently, I rarely go South, but it is also unfortunate, as I don't like cold and North is synonymous with cold here.

While my name is entirely Japanese (last name Shimura), I elected to take the last name of my stepmom, who is Japanese (Really?) and my first name is due to probably a drunken decision to name me after a dog. Yes, you heard that right, a dog named Kita. The dog was older than me.

Continuing, I'm in my teens. I think it's stupid to give out my exact age, so let's leave it at me being too young for my readers, even if they're all only 8. I write as well as I can (good grammar, spelling, and structure) so I don't look like as much of an idiot as I do in person. I'm really not as smart as I write, so I may use the wrong word at times.

The only time I've ever been exposed to the world in an image that made it online was a demotivational poster that I'd rather not talk about and I don't intend on changing that. If you want to see me, you'll just have to find me on your own (though I don't recommend it. I have mace). Well, there is one picture of me floating around somewhere with a celebrity, but I'm not directly part of it, I just happened to be behind this celebrity when the picture was taken. If you really must know, it was John Travolta and his family. Fine, I'll show it, but I'm not proud of it. I just want to expose many parts of my life.

I'm the unattractive one behind the daughter. See why I don't like pictures of myself floating around? Don't expect me to show any more pictures of myself ever again. Never.

Now you know some bad things about me. Do you feel special? Maybe I should say some of my good traits. I'm generally happy, I'm NOT a fan of Twilight, I like Anne Rice, and I have all of my fingers and toes. Is that enough good stuff?

If anyone finds this blog that I didn't invite, I'll probably die of a heart attack. Instantly. Like, the second they reply, I'll just die. I won't even have a chance to check, I'll just have my heart attack and be like "OMG! Someone read my blog!" then die. Then again, that will probably require one of the three people either telling someone else out of spite and the want to kill me or because my blog is actually cool. Who knows? I don't. I probably never will.

~Kita